Let Go

I choose not to look at it as defeat. The universe is telling me this is just not the right time to do this thing. I’m too hard headed to be told what to do anyway, so I will simply defer this for now and come back to it later. Even if I try, trying is a success of it’s own merit. But sometimes the world is telling us something different and we shouldn’t ignore the signals. It’s a miracle I’m even catching glimpses of the signs. Are they signs guiding me, or are they labels I put on things to compensate for my own defeat? I like to think I’m learning to go with the stride, and the stride is a river flowing towards the thing the universe want’s me to have. If I relax and go with it, a different success will come easy. Fight it, and I will unsuccessfully struggle against the upstream river current. You gotta go with the flow to be in the know.

I could be sad. I sort of want to be sad about not achieving the goal, I have the freedom to be morose. Do I have to be morose before I can feel the extent of happiness at fulfilling my goal? Do I have to have rain in order to enjoy sunshine? If I consistently choose happiness, am I as happy as I can be than if I occasionally choose morose? Do I have to have something to compare happiness to?

The harder I swim towards my goal, the harder the current takes me away from it. Throw me a rope for God’s sake. Then again, I might inadvertently hang myself with it, so God doesn’t throw the rope and instead lets me thrash about. The current gets more violent the harder I thrash, or is that of my own doing because I’m being so disruptive of my surroundings? Read the room. Go with the flow. Watch the fish work his surroundings effortlessly. Be like the fish. Be yourself, but let the current take you where you are supposed to be. Quit the upstream struggle. Be like the fish.

Don’t look at defeat, it’s not the right time
To succeed, just look for find the signs
Read the room, Follow the river, follow the flow to be
in the know.
Follow the river, follow the flow,
know how to row work the undertow to be in
Find the undertow, be in
the flow

respect the undertow? Submit, give in, agree with the undertow, look at the undertow, look for the undertow, find the undertow in the flow.

I try so hard. I try too hard? Do I try so hard without even looking around to see if I’m in the right room? In the right river? Why do I insist on putting a square peg in the round hole, and when it doesn’t fit I start hammering and I hurt myself with the hammer. I can get it done. The only way to get things accomplished is to set a goal and march towards it, but during these periods of intense focus is it so wise to block out everything else? Much success has come this way, so why is this success not coming? Is my grip too tight on the execution of my reality, execution of my dream. (ha ha hold on loosely but don’t let go) When I want it, I rush to get it. Quit rushing? But if I don’t march forward, am I going backward? Is not moving at all a bad thing? Even going backwards is sometimes a good thing to get yourself realigned with the path of intention. Yet I only feel successful when I’m finished? Why do I not feel successful along the way? Is this what I have yet to learn (ha ha it’s the journey not the destination)? How do I keep momentum without moving forward? How do I feel successful without forward momentum?

When I see my goal at the bottom of the river I dive right in to get it, but did I evaluate what it will take to get it? Well, if I stop to evaluate I’m afraid I will see all the obstacles and change my mind or get defeated in my mind before even starting. If I don’t know what I don’t know, then what I don’t know can’t stop me. I won’t let it stop me. If I didn’t know that I wasn’t supposed to be able to achieve that, then I’m more likely to achieve it. Don’t tell me what I can and can’t do, because only I will decide for myself, it’s not up to you to determine what I’m going to be successful at. Stop your talking and get out of my way, because you didn’t even try and you just stand there flapping your gills.

Oops. It always circles back. I’m objecting to you there flapping your gills like a fish, yet it’s the fish that knows how to go with the flow of the river and if I want success in that river, I have to be like the fish.

I love it, But is the song now called / about the signs? and not about being like a fish in the flow?

WHAT SIGNS?

[chorus]
Follow the river, follow the flow,
Find the undertow, be in the flow know
Don’t look at defeat, it’s not the right time
To succeed, find you gotta read
the signs

I see my goal and dive right in
swim to the bottom to grab it
push real hard to reach for it
hold my breath while I reach for it
but I missed

Now I float in tunnel vision
I tread here until the finish
not a thought I might drown
Must have it now

[chorus]

Jump into the tunnel vision
I float there until the finish
not a thought I might drown
I have to have it now

I’m concentrating so hard on staying focused on my goal that I don’t even recognize that I am drowning. Is that the sign? what are the signs of drowning? and just about when my time is up and I have maybe 1 second of life left in me, when I give up, is when the river takes me (ha ha River Take Me! River Take Me!) and flows me to where I am supposed to be. Submit and God/River/Universe flows you effortlessly to your best destination that you didn’t even know. Start over?

Read the signs: of when you’re drowning, of when it’s not working, when to stop, when to accept defeat? but is it defeat when you successfully give up? and let the river take you?
[insert verse about water struggle]
[insert verse about it’s not defeat if you give up?]

Keeping my goal in sight
I struggle against the tide
do I give in or do I fight?
Where’s my sign?

[chorus]

About the time I give in
Sink to the bottom of the river bin
I let go I give up
The river takes me to my new challenge/goal/success
The river knows when I’ve had enough

[bridge]
One minute from giving in
Expect to sink in the river bin
loosen my grip I float free
to where I’m supposed to be

I didn’t reach my goal but it’s alright
I didn’t quit, I just read the signs
I’m wasn’t where I was supposed to be
Successful give up is not defeat!

[chorus]
Follow the river, follow the flow,
Find the undertow, be in the know
Don’t look at defeat, it’s not the right time
To succeed, you gotta read
the signs

I see my goal and dive right in
swim to the bottom to grab it
hold my breath while I reach for it
but I missed

Now I float in tunnel vision
I tread here until the finish
not a thought that I might drown
Must have it now

[chorus]

Keeping my goal in sight
I struggle against the tide
do I give in or do I fight?
Where’s my sign?

[chorus]

[bridge]
One minute from giving in
Expect to sink in the river bin
loosen my grip I float free
to where I’m supposed to be
to where the river wants to takes me!

I didn’t reach my goal but it’s alright
I didn’t quit, I just read the signs
I wasn’t where I was supposed to be
Successful give up is not defeat!

[chorus]

4/27/24

Keeping my goal in sight
I struggle against the tide
do I give in or do I fight?
Where’s my sign?

[chorus]
Fall
in the river
flow
With the undertow
know
no defeat
To succeed, I gotta read
the signs.

I see my goal and dive right in
swim to the bottom to grab it
hold my breath while I reach for it
but I missed

floating in tunnel vision
Treading until the finish
not a thought that I might drown
Must have it now

[chorus]

[bridge]
One minute from giving in
Expect to sink in the river bin
loosen my grip I float free
to where I’m supposed to be
to where the river wants me!

I didn’t reach my goal but it’s alright
I didn’t quit, I just read the signs
I wasn’t where I was supposed to be
Successful give up is not defeat!

[chorus]

4/28/24 I wonder if song title changes from Read the Signs to No Defeat? It’s about the struggle of wanting something so badly that you put on blinders and tunnel vision so stubbornly that you can’t see anything else, even to the demise of achieving your goal. Loosen up a bit and take cues and signs from the universe that it’s simply not the right time for this and to put it on the back burner for a while to simmer until it’s the right time to resurrect again at a later date. When you do this, it’s not defeat, it’s success that you care enough about achieving the goal that you let go of it for a moment. Don’t strangle it. The signs are always there from the universe, just don’t be so stupid that you didn’t see nor heed the signs telling you what to do, and when you follow the signs you don’t feel like the universe is working against you but with you and everything becomes easier. Reading signs is not defeat. Heeding the sign the universe has laid out for you that this is not the right time is not defeat. Just because its not your time doesn’t mean you have failed the moment.

[G]I am stuck in tunnel vision [C]Won’t stop until it’s finish
[D]Not a thought that [C]I might drown [D][C]Must have it [G]now

Keeping my goal in my sight I struggle against the tide
Not going down without a fight, I didn’t see the signs.

[chorus]
[D]Fall
[C]in the river
[D]flow
[C]With the undertow
[G]not defeat, to succeed
[C]find the right time, [D]learn to read
[G]the signs.

[bridge]
One minute from giving in Expect to sink in the river bin
loosen my grip I float free to where, where the river wants me!

[chorus]

Didn’t reach my goal but it’s alright I didn’t quit, I just read the signs
I wasn’t where I was supposed to be Successful give up surrender is not defeat!

[chorus]

first run through with Gregor, he gets everything but the signs. Lol. Ok. Successful surrender.
consider dropping the signs and concentrate on going with the flow.

renamed song to successful surrender.

04/29/24

Fishing to succeed, in a stream of failure
Why am I drowning? I won’t let go of the anchor

It’s my decision to stay in tunnel vision
So much persistence, Why can’t I finish?

[chorus]
Fall
in the river
flow
With the undertow
If I loosen my grip I’d float free
Successful surrender is not defeat
x2

The river taught me I wasn’t where I was supposed to be
________________to where, where the river wants me

My goal is incomplete, My deadline I didn’t meet
strangle it holding too tight
Keeping my goal in my sight, must finish this deadline

holding the anchor for dear life, Sinking in this fight
Don’t let go, don’t get out, even though I might drown

Deadline is too tight, I still fight,

In a stream of check off lists, I succeed when I persist
Stuck in tunnel vision Won’t stop until it’s finish

[chorus]

Am I in the right river? I fight and fight to hold on it’s so hard, but it was even harder to let go /loosen grip. That was harder than holding on. I thought holding on was the hard part, but letting go is harder. Holding on it not the problem. Listening to all the signs the universe is giving you to let go is. all the signs point to letting go, yet you struggle to hold on. Once you let go and allow the powers to flow in it lubricates the tunnels of possibility to open up. Water makes it move easier. You thought you were holding on, but what you were holding on to was an anchor. You were stuck to an anchor. Keep working on it don’t let up. Can’t stop or I won’t get what I wanted.

I’m sure I’ll get what I want / succeed if I Ignore everything else
Work every hour, even though I might drown
I’m in a river of paper. A stream of paper. A stream of to-do lists A stream of check off lists drowning
holding the line, not knowing it’s tied to the anchor

gotta learn when to bank her, learn when you’re tied to the anchor
never give up never give in when will I learn I’m holding an anchor
why am I drowning
give her
never

Going to succeed, but drowning in this stream
of failure, because I won’t, let go, of the anchor

[chorus]
Fall
in the river
flow
With the undertow
If I loosen my grip I’d float free
Successful surrender is not defeat
x2

The river taught me I wasn’t where I was supposed to be
________________to where, where the river wants me

vision, fishing

4/30/24

I will succeed, but drowning in this stream
of failure, because I won’t, let go, of the anchor

Holding the line, sinking me harder I try
to hold on, further down I go, when, do, I let go?

[chorus]
Fall
in the river
flow
With the undertow
If I loosen my grip I’d float free
to where, where, the river wants me

The river taught me I wasn’t where I was supposed to be
________________to where, where the river wants me
Successful surrender is not defeat

-REWRITE-
RENAME song to Let Go of the Anchor? Let Go the Anchor? The Anchor? Learning to Flow?

[chorus]
When you [D]Fall
in the [C]river
gotta [D]Flow
with the [C]undertow
[G]loosen my grip I would float free
[C]away from the anchor holding me
[D]Fall
in the [C]river
Gotta [D]Flow
with the [C]undertow
[G]I’d let go if I were me
[C]float to where the [D]river wants [G]me

[C]I will succeed, but [G]drowning, in this stream
of [C]failure, because I won’t, let [G]go, of the anchor

[C]Holding the line, [G]sinking me the, harder I try
to [C]hold on, the further down, I [G]go, [NC] when do I let go?

[chorus]

[C]The anchor is gone, I [G]wasn’t supposed to be, holding on
to [G]what, didn’t, serve me, [G]Suc[NC]cessful surrender is, not defeat!

[chorus]